I didn't get up at 0400 hrs or earlier this morning. As a matter of fact, I slept in until 0500 hrs, which is almost unheard of! I had a rough night. Nightmares. My brain is trying to sort out the trauma memories and store them in the correct sequences and in the proper places … Continue reading Slept in until 0500 hrs
I went to get my Real ID at the DMV the other day and was telling the Doc about it today. He was curious as to how it worked, so I was telling him and we realized that there was an awful lot of circularity to the whole process. For example, I used my current … Continue reading Who am I?
The Doc and I talked yesterday and he told me to take a small dose of the medication that I hadn't taken for two days and was feeling so sick from not having taken. I feel better today than I did yesterday, and my mom says I look better, as I was very pale yesterday. … Continue reading Adjusting to adjusting the meds
Squiggle Bug loved the "beach" that Gramma and I set up (and that Uncle Jerrold built the frame for) in the back yard for him. We decided we needed to let the sand dry out some more before we turned him loose in it, but that didn't keep him from jumping in and sitting down! … Continue reading The beach
Well, I had my driver's license renewal appointment this morning. I also got the Real ID now required to get past checkpoints that Montana has been fighting the implementation of for the past six years. I didn't have to because I had a valid passport, a military ID, a Social Security card, and many other … Continue reading Homework from the Doc and my driver’s license renewal
Today, I feel feverish and all-around cruddy. I have a headache and have spent fully half the day (but not the whole day, in contrast to yesterday) in the bunker. I did go for a short walk with my mom at 0500 hrs even though I felt like my body was going to collapse in … Continue reading Continuing the insider’s view on med changes
So, right now, I feel like it's about 120ºF in the house with the fan blowing straight on me and it's only actually 70ºF with a lot of humidity. My body's not happy at all with me not having my antipsychotic medication today. I feel feverish, but in that roasting-to-death way. I've been in the … Continue reading Cutting back on the meds – an insider’s view
It's clear to my psychiatrist and me that we need to dial back one of my psychotropic medications, specifically my antipsychotic. My motivation is zilch and my restlessness is 1000%! We are going to try to get to a lower steady state more quickly by having me take a lower dose every other day, and … Continue reading Changing my meds again
Sunday is to be a day of rest...so that's what I'm making mine today. I'm writing, I'm watching my MasterClass by Neil Gaiman, I'm underlining what I want to underline in my Sunday School lesson book, I'm flipping through my thesaurus, I'm staying out of the heat, I'm taking walks with my mother (early this … Continue reading This Sunday is a day of rest
Ferocious winds buffeted the buildings, testing the strength of the branches and roots of the trees. Sixty-mile-per-hour gusts caused weak branches and shingles to go flying into the air, across streets and into vehicles. Then the torrential rain began, littered with hail as the constant rumble of thunder and the lightning flashes persisted. The neighbors … Continue reading What a storm!