So, right now, I feel like it’s about 120ºF in the house with the fan blowing straight on me and it’s only actually 70ºF with a lot of humidity. My body’s not happy at all with me not having my antipsychotic medication today. I feel feverish, but in that roasting-to-death way. I’ve been in the bunker (in bed) almost all day. My mom and I went for a walk this morning at just after 0500 hrs, and another at around 1100 hrs. The longer I go without my medication, the worse I feel. I don’t feel significantly different motivation-wise, but the restlessness has dialed back a bit. I still have no motivation. I would describe my feelings today as follows:
I had a dream – someone killed it.
I had another dream – someone killed it.
I have no dreams now
And there are no more assassins.
© 2019 Chris Jones
That being how I’ve felt more and more today, as the day has worn on, I called my doctor and he called me back for a coaching moment. I was supposed to take a lower dose of my antipsychotic tomorrow, but we decided that I would skip a second day in a row of my antipsychotic and call him tomorrow afternoon, doing it day-by-day. By Thursday, the half-life (and half-dose) level will have been reached if I don’t take the medication tomorrow. We agreed to see how I feel and take it day-by-day. I have to take my driver’s license renewal paperwork in tomorrow morning. I’m going to have my mom go in with me for the appointment in case I can’t think straight. There’s a real possibility of that happening, but it might not. I’m not really sure what to expect at this point. So far, I just feel miserable, to be honest. I hate medication changes. My body doesn’t respond well to them. I just hope we find out soon what dose I need to be on so that I can get back to feeling motivated to climb!
CLIMBING 4 THE REST OF US 