Blank spaces

There are very few blank spaces on the bouldering walls at the climbing gym. This is a good analogy for most people’s memories. They don’t have big blank spaces on their “walls”. I do. I have years’ worth of memory that is lost forever — blank spaces. There are various reasons for those blank spaces being there, but they all mean the same thing for me…a lot of blank stares on my part, wondering what people are talking about when they say, “Hey, remember when we…?” I just nod and let them retell the story so I know what I did, or at least how it was perceived! Trauma and the treatments I’ve had for it are largely responsible for my blank spaces, but I’m going to live life, anyway, so that I’ll have some new harrowing tales told to me about myself when I’m old, hahaha!!!