Paralyzing anxiety

I have a mental status exam with a psychologist I’ve never met next Tuesday. Exactly one week from today. I have such intense anxiety about it that I’m physically ill. It’s paralyzing. I have a headache, I’m nauseous, my heart rate is 117 bpm and I just feel sick and tight in my chest. I’m sure my blood pressure is through the roof, too! I have PTSD! They should know this kind of thing causes undue stress! I don’t trust people anyway, and I’m supposed to just tell this guy whatever he wants to know about my illness?! I’m so anxious that I can’t even climb right now because there is a 7yo kid on one of the auto-belays next to where I want to climb!!! I called the Doc for a coaching moment and am just hanging out blogging to try to keep the anxiety from completely overwhelming me until I talk to the Doc about it. This is the worst my anxiety has been in a long, long time. And on top of that, how should I dress? What should I wear? Should I try to climb before this mental status exam? Would I even be able to? This is insane!

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