Test anxiety…

Tomorrow’s the day.  Founding Members only toprope and lead certifications for rope climbing and belaying.  I have terrible anxiety about it.  You have to be able to climb 5.9 for the lead certification, which I wouldn’t be worried about except for the fact that I haven’t climbed a rope route in about a month.  I was making terrific progress, and then the old gym – new gym transition, and Montana’s famous winter weather, came along and I haven’t climbed at all in the last two weeks!  I know it’s an outright test, too.  What if I screw up?  It won’t just be that I screwed up.  It’ll be in front of a bunch of people that I screwed up.  Then nobody will trust my skills or that I even have the skills that I need and I will not only NOT get certified, but I’ll also be humiliated.  That might affect my route setter status.  That would be, in a word, DISASTROUS.  I don’t know how to cope with this anxiety, either.  I just don’t know what to do.  I have an appointment with the Doc tomorrow morning before the certifications start.  My anxiety about this is extreme! Like, off the charts!  This is one of those times when I NEED to climb, and I can’t.  There’s nothing and nowhere to climb.  It’s cold and snowy outside, the climbing gym isn’t open yet, and if it was, I’d have to get certified to climb any of the rope routes (the exact problem, here, with my test anxiety), and I have no one to talk to about it unless I either e-mail Lou or call my doctor for a coaching moment!  I’m seriously considering a coaching moment.  And maybe I should e-mail Lou, too.  He might have a useful take on this…

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